As 2009 came closer and closer yesterday night...
We were having fun, crap and other stupid stuff to
entertain ourselves with. Oh, I wish I had some photo's
to show! But, it seems that there are none! Oh well, perhaps
just recapping a few memories will give a good idea of thtat day.

Capture 1: Morning was filled with polyclinic visiting, medicine
claiming, birthday cake buying and wet market patronizing, for us!

Capture 2: Early afternoon we went to Shi Rui's house to get the
first bits of taste of the steamboat! It was YUMMY! Even
though I wasn't having a good apetite...

Capture 3: As the hours passed on, Shi Rui's house was being filled
more and more with brothers and sisters! Laughter became louder
and crap became... More crap?

Capture 4: At night once again we had our delicious steamboat
plus a mini frying thing... Forgot the name of the thingy...
So ya. He-he...

Capture 5: Countdown was nearing and so was the mini celebration
for Yu Yang's birthday! We bought mini fruit tarts for him. :)

2009!!!

"After reprimanding myself and thinking things over and over...
I came to a conclusion... Wan Ru... You think too much!

I mean I know you're the organizer of the events happening
all the time and doing so many stuff. It just gives me the
feeling you're so into everyone and everything else...

It doesn't matter where I go or where I am, you will always
be the first I will consider or think off... I don't think that
is always like wise for you... I'm sorry...

I have told myself so many times already... It's ok! You're
the big planner, you're organizing, you're busy with running things.
I'll be somewhere and I can't even help. Do you know how
that feels?

You asked me to accompany you, go for the party, go for things
and stay by your side. Even when you play with them, I wanted
to just sit next to you and just help you take cards. But even
that was not needed... You were too excited playing. So I
was like fine. It's ok. I don't want to say anything. I went
to find little Keith, who was playing all by himself. Went there
to encourage him a bit, he seemed bored last night.

On top of that, I was worrying about whether my home was
fine. Whether my mother would blame me for coming
to a friend's house instead of staying at home. Everytime I
have this uncomfortable feeling going out for these events.

I know you're being the host, being all over the place...
I spared many thoughts for you, I wanted to hide what I
thought about it... But I just couldn't hide all of it... I am
truly sorry if I didn't behave myself.

However, you replied me... "How many times do I still
have to explain?" That may be the saddest part...

I now have decided already... I don't want to give in to my
emotions so easily... Not anymore...

Whatever happens... I rather take everything in and endure...
No more unhappiness for you..."

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Dear&Dar 8:25 PM