Currently feeling like drop dead exhausted, but somehow
I just can't get to sleep yet. Thinking about how today will
be like at around 12pm? It is about 1.45 am in the morning
now...

The 29th January has come! Repairs in progress and
hopefully a repair for good! No more pain, no more struggles
to walk and regaining the ability to dance! Finally a real good
thing might just happen this new year.

If you ask me whether I am scared... I would say... Like duhh
I am scared! But oh well, let's get this over with by the 29th!!!

||| *Knee construction! :)* |||

Dear&Dar 1:46 AM

It is Chinese New Year! Moooooo Year!
Ha-ha! Ok, whatever it is, I am still as lame as always.
Like duh!!!

Hope this year will be a better one than last year. I am quite a
bit bored at the moment and nothing to do really. Haven't grown
sleepy yet and so I decided to stay up and give my mother
longevity. WAHAHAHA!!!

Just now had a reunion dinner as I already mentioned
yesterday in my post. After that went to watch the movie:
The Wedding Game. Went to watch it with my mother, brother,
ALL of Dear's brother and sisters and of course him too!

It was a fun night people. :) Pretty satisfied with the happenings.
Tomorrow early morning going for visits with Dear, after that
in the afternoon return home to help with dinner preparations.

It is going to be steamboat! Yummy! :P

||| *Mooooo Year!* |||

Dear&Dar 2:19 AM

I decided not to align my text to the center anymore.
Ok, never mind, that was kind of lame anyway.

Tomorrow evening going for a reunion dinner, and guess what...
My brother AND mother are both going to have dinner with
Dear's family... OH MY TIAN!

Ha-ha, kind of scared... Just hope no silly words come out.

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So I went for my MRI scan at Alexandra hospital
last Saturday. It was so huge and boring and noisy!!!
I actually fell asleep during the one hour plus scanning
session.

Sunday I spend a day with Dear and we went to swim in
the morning. 8 am I woke up to get ready and changed to
go Dear's house first. Had to give him a morning call too
before I left my house. :)

After we met, we went down to Jurong side there to get
a bit of breakfast and first we had to find something...
HAHA... Can't say what la... Around 10 am we reached
the swimming complex and we went to transform into
our swimming attire! Whatever... Dots...

I was wearing this bikini which I call a THING! I am so super
shy when I wear that can??? I really don't fancy because
I have like SUPER low confidence in my body. I should be.
Wahahaha!

First we wanted to go into that current thingy, that stream
you know. But once our toes reached the water, we were like...
Oh my tian ah! So ice cold!!! To warm up, Dear suggested
to go from one of the slide to absorb the shock of the cold water
first! So scary...

After that, we went around to stroll in the lazy pool, kind of a
jacuzzi like pool and after that we went to the "beach". Where
Kelvin almost somehow drowned. Lol! Sorry, no offense Kel!
The water there was even cold! Dear held on tight to the float
we had! He was so scared of the spraying water, as he was
shivering like crazy. Ha-ha!!! All over the skin there were goose
bumps to be seen. I pushed him with the float further into the
waves and made him paddle like a madman to come back
to "shore"! That was a really FUNNY scene! I am so bad...
NOT!!!

Afterwards, we went to find Ah Ma... And saw his sister too. We
went to lunch at Sakae Sushi the three of us. That was about it.

Home Sour Home again :)

||| *Had a good weekend!* |||

Dear&Dar 10:37 AM

So I was wondering... When is it finally going to be my time to
dance once again? Just now we had a Modern Dance meeting
at Zaini's office... I saw all my dance mates after roughly
a 2 month plus not seeing them... I really miss the feeling
of dance. The sweat, the tears and the muscle ache...

I so miss to dance I so miss it... T.T

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Yesterday we in a way quite last minute decided
not to go for work and find ourselves replacements
instead. We wanted to enjoy the last day of our holiday
for a while!

First Dear and me went for a movie which is Yes Man! A
comedy where the main character was played by Jim
Carrey. Or whatever you spell his name like, and everytime
I see the elasticity and size of his mouth! It truly amazes me how
he does it...

After that little piece of laughter, we went back to Dear's home to
wash up and make a little change of clothes plus shoes. My flats
were like damn hurting and my knee was already in a terrbible
condition that afternoon.

We got ourselves out of the house alive! A lot of little cute
monsters were running around trying to catch us upon going
out. We met Yao Liang and Gin a bit later on at Bugis for
a yummy steamboat! Had some laughters and talks exchanged
during the 2 hour dinner-ing.

Afterwards we had a tiny shopping session for nothing special.
Returning back to Woodlands at around 9pm something.
Slept all the way back in the MRT, sleep until my neck is pain
today. Ha-ha! Super tired in class now... Some more later there
is an UT!

||| *CCC ... Crystal Clear Conscience* |||

Dear&Dar 9:16 AM

As 2009 came closer and closer yesterday night...
We were having fun, crap and other stupid stuff to
entertain ourselves with. Oh, I wish I had some photo's
to show! But, it seems that there are none! Oh well, perhaps
just recapping a few memories will give a good idea of thtat day.

Capture 1: Morning was filled with polyclinic visiting, medicine
claiming, birthday cake buying and wet market patronizing, for us!

Capture 2: Early afternoon we went to Shi Rui's house to get the
first bits of taste of the steamboat! It was YUMMY! Even
though I wasn't having a good apetite...

Capture 3: As the hours passed on, Shi Rui's house was being filled
more and more with brothers and sisters! Laughter became louder
and crap became... More crap?

Capture 4: At night once again we had our delicious steamboat
plus a mini frying thing... Forgot the name of the thingy...
So ya. He-he...

Capture 5: Countdown was nearing and so was the mini celebration
for Yu Yang's birthday! We bought mini fruit tarts for him. :)

2009!!!

"After reprimanding myself and thinking things over and over...
I came to a conclusion... Wan Ru... You think too much!

I mean I know you're the organizer of the events happening
all the time and doing so many stuff. It just gives me the
feeling you're so into everyone and everything else...

It doesn't matter where I go or where I am, you will always
be the first I will consider or think off... I don't think that
is always like wise for you... I'm sorry...

I have told myself so many times already... It's ok! You're
the big planner, you're organizing, you're busy with running things.
I'll be somewhere and I can't even help. Do you know how
that feels?

You asked me to accompany you, go for the party, go for things
and stay by your side. Even when you play with them, I wanted
to just sit next to you and just help you take cards. But even
that was not needed... You were too excited playing. So I
was like fine. It's ok. I don't want to say anything. I went
to find little Keith, who was playing all by himself. Went there
to encourage him a bit, he seemed bored last night.

On top of that, I was worrying about whether my home was
fine. Whether my mother would blame me for coming
to a friend's house instead of staying at home. Everytime I
have this uncomfortable feeling going out for these events.

I know you're being the host, being all over the place...
I spared many thoughts for you, I wanted to hide what I
thought about it... But I just couldn't hide all of it... I am
truly sorry if I didn't behave myself.

However, you replied me... "How many times do I still
have to explain?" That may be the saddest part...

I now have decided already... I don't want to give in to my
emotions so easily... Not anymore...

Whatever happens... I rather take everything in and endure...
No more unhappiness for you..."

||| *No comments at all* |||

Dear&Dar 8:25 PM