
Friday, August 29, 2008

- Frustration from the quiet side...
As much as I wish I could talk... I don't know why I justcan't do it the normal way... Isn't it speaking is silversilence is gold?I want to explain so many things in a proper way, but willmy mind let me? I am trying so hard, even though it hurtsme... I feel so screwed up inside... Bottling things upwhich sometimes are not meant to be kept by me alone...How I wish I could be like you, knowing how to display mytrain of thoughts to the world when it is necessary. I guessI am just too lousy to do it the right way.I don't say anything, you get frustrated and fed-up... Itell you what is on my mind, but I can't find the right words,you get more fed-up and angry... What am I to do?
I know that being with a person who is not able to expressherself in a clear way is real frustrating. I just hope you willgive me some time and a chance to prove myself to you...That I can do it. I want to share everything with you.Whatever I do, whatever I think, whatever I feel andwhatever what-not-ever...The feeling is so sad... Not just my eyes cried, my heart criedeven harder... Endless tears over all these years, asking myself."Why can't I speak up?"Even before I met you, I was like this already. In fact, I was farworse than I am now. I like to write, it makes me feel comfortable and somehow safe. I can type endlessly like this...
See this picture? The last one should be depicting me right?*Sighs*
...I love you...
Never mind... Dear having exam in the morning at 10am.
JIA YOU! =X
||| *Speak no evil...* |||
Dear&Dar
2:07 AM