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Lim Wan Ru, Michelle
21 going 22!
Republic Polytechnic
3rd Year
Diploma in Integrated Events Management
Modern Dance IG & JIVE IG
Happily Married!!!

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I am sick!!! Haizz... Why??? My nose is like a tap that is broken... Sometimes stuck sometimes running like waterfall. And like soooo itchy... Everytime its Hatchoo!!!

Haha... Damnnn... Too tired to blog actually, just felt like writing some crap... On a sidenote... Dear has gone back to camp again. Sadded. Missing him already. Some more he is going to have a fieldcamp from Monday until Wednesday afternoon. Can't call or sms him in the meantime. ):

Anyway... Argh... Never mind too tired le. I surrender to sleep! Haha...

Today, while I was rushing to pick up Dear from MRT I met this very strange person. Which I had a very short but funny conversation with. Since I do not wish that my blog would be tagged as semi-active I decided to paste this funny memory up to my blog post. (:


" Wan Ru was rushing towards Woodlands MRT because she was running late to pick up her Dear! When suddenly a kind of sleazy looking man approached her..."


Sleazy man: "Excuse me, excuse me miss. Would you give me a minute?!"

WR: *Stares blankly at stranger guy."

Sleazy man: "I am sorry to disturb you but I was wondering if you would be interested to be an actress or hostess in a TV programme/show? I am a talent scout seeking for new faces for the TV.

WR: *Still in rushing mode and gives Sleazy man bewildered look.* "Erhm, no. I am sorry, I am not interested. Ehe."

Sleazy man: "Oh but you look gorgeous miss, you are. And how old are you?"

WR: "No. No I don't. Haha. I am 21 years old."

Sleazy man: "So you don't think your beautiful or gorgeous?"

WR: *Shakes head vivaciously* "No I do not think I am gorgeous." *Smiled*

Sleazy man: "Oh well. I am sorry, but are you rushing somewhere? To where?"

WR: "Actually I am quite in a rush to Jurong side. I need to pick up my husband."

Sleazy man: *Gives bewildered look* "Your so young! You're 21 and you have a husband!"

WR: *Nods her head in acknowledgment* "Yea, I am sorry, but I really have to go now."


As I smiled one last time to this stranger sleazy guy, I turned my back and ran off to catch my MRT. While I was walking away from him, I could still hear him mumbling, something like you're 21 and you're married. I was quietly savoring on that sweet thought, that yes, I am married so what. And guess what, I am so freaking happy about it! Because I feel like a whole with my husband. A whole heart, a whole life, a whole soul and anything else which was broken before... <3

The Best Is Yet To Be For Us...

On our joyful wedding day,
We begin a brand new life.
Friends and family give their gifts
To joyful husband, blissful wife.

But the greatest gift we'll ever get,
A gift from heaven above,
Is love forever, ending never,
Everlasting love.

We'll share life's joy and pleasure;
We'll have plenty of that, it's true.
But love is the real treasure
For me and you.

And if life hands us challenges,
As it does to one and all,
Our love will hold us steady
And never let us fall.

Our wedding day is full of joy;
Tomorrow we cannot see.
But one thing's sure for the two of us:
The best is yet to be...

||| *I love you Dear. I always have and always will.* |||

P.S.: To check out the photos, go to my facebook!!! (:

Wan Ru's blog rises from the dust once again!!! *triumphant music plays*
Aww... Just kidding la, don't give me that lame face please??? (:


I just wanted to say and shout it off my chest. MY OWN FREAKING MOTHER CALLED ME A PIECE OF SHIT! AND SHE SAID I DON'T CARE FOR HER AND THAT I AM A MONSTER!!!

Now how hurting can you be?! So much for motherly love eh. I am the only one that has been filial to her. The only who decided to stay with her in this damned house! The only one who actually cared whether she ate or not!

I am not like my two younger siblings. Who left the house just because of some lame reason? And at the end, using me as the scapegoat, that it is because of me they left the house? How fucked up can you be? They rather stay with the father that left our family to break and with his new husband-stealing-bitch-woman-wife and that little brat. Than staying with their very own mother and sister.

And for all the above I am getting the freaking blame for all that? Thanks a lot ok. Thanks a lot! That's exactly what I needed during my graduation period, my last sprint, throughout my hectic schedules of Final Year Project, lessons, exams and other shit meetings. I am totally out of things or reasons to live for... If it weren't for you Dear... I would have been so send to Hell already. The only who can really listen to me when I talk about this kind of family rubbish. The only thing other than Dear which I can be glad of is that, I have food, I have water, I have a roof above my head and I get to go to school. That's it.

But the mental and emotional fulfillment is lacking so far behind all those physical traits.

I'm done here... A mother... Just only knows how to think that her daughter does not care about her, and she never sees that her wrong is that, she can't be happy for her own daughter. Her one and only daughter who feels happy for her own marriage, but the mother isn't. Not even this once, my own mother would give me her blessings and to be happy for my glad tidings. Never has she done that for me...

Wan Ru is going to put a magical duster at this blog entry, so that it can help her collect all the dust it is going to collect once again soon. This week is freaking packed, next will be packed as well.



A bit nervous about working as some coordinator for the APEC CEO Summit, but it should be an experience of a lifetime! Since this summit only occurs every 20 years! It is like wow! Why such a big gap between the conferences and meeting... Gosh... Sometimes I really don't understand the adult and political world... Even though by law, I am an adult now... =.=''

So freaking tired at the moment... Dear must be tired too... Doing his 28 kilometer road march now... Don't know army is so retarded all the time... As if people will calmly and slowly march their way into war... Like dots!

Oh crap... I really got to go now, before I really DIE off... Do laundry and off to Lala Land! I promise! Next time my blog entry will be filled with a bit more of a storyline! Take care all my loved ones!

Chapter 1~

After receiving a certain comment that my blog was collecting way too much dust, I decided to start a major cleaning session for my dearest blog. So many things has happened during the meantime, and I am literally dying to get it off my chest.

I would like to tell you about something which is currently contributing to my stress and extra wrinkles. This is regarding the very extremely prompt marriage arrangements being pre-made for Dear and me.

Everything is like so complicated and all these issues make up the voices which are either shouting or complaining in my head now! Here we go...


From Dear's family side:

• Afraid something might happen to great grandmother, as she is considerably aged already! And then we have to wait another 3 years before we can get married.
• They want to let his great grandmother see the oldest great grandson to be married off! [Dear being the great grandson]
• 6th December is truly a HOT date!!! Practically 1/5 of Singapore is getting married on this day!!!
• Rushing into marriage preparations which were actually planned for two years later.
• They can't get their points 100% clear to my mum.

My family side:

• My mum thinks we don't trust each other.
• She feels it's too in a rush to get married.
• She thinks that, Dear's parents never considered our feelings and future!
• She said it in this way that; I never said no or objected to you marrying him BUT... And here it comes... She still feels we need at least one more year to know each other better.
• Doesn't fully understand the situation going on.

My brain:

• Full of ARGHHHH noise and voices of both families in my head!
• All this is making me feel so pressurised and stress!
• Stress led to serious stomach aches and insomnia...
• I really want to spend my life with Dear.
• A wedding for me, means bliss, but my environment is making it otherwise...
• SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME! [and that someone who is so essential to this marriage thing, isn't even here to help me. I thought it was supposed to be a 2 man show when it comes to a wedding, not a 1 man show...]
• I need to do fitting of gowns, look for rings, find a venues for ROM, arrange school meetings, doing a community event, finding a job, trying to finish assignments, have to concentrate on FYP and so many many more!!!!!!!!!!!!
• [All this is is a combination of the above 2 plus my own thoughts...]

But one thing is for sure... Dear your mine! And you'll always be! No matter what others say or do! You're stuck on me! Let this marriage be our happy bliss... <3

Chapter 2~

There has been one thing really annoying me the past week, apart from all my love cum marriage life. It's the fact, that I am keep being told that my Mandarin is weird. Which ya like duh! I know very well it is weird... But it is simply so discouraging to keep being told that I sound weird. It just make me feel more like giving up on speaking Mandarin, I don't even want to attempt anymore.

DO YOU KNOW I AM TRYING REAL HARD TO LEARN MANDARIN?!!! I AM DOING MY VERY BEST AND IN ALL MY POWER TO CATCH UP WITH MY LOST YEARS IN SINGAPORE!!!

You know... The feeling is like quite hurt and like scathing my pride in a way too. It is like telling a Singaporean; " You're English is so WEIRD with all your lah leh loh lei's! It is best you do not speak English, because honestly speaking, you're English seriously sucks like rocks!"

How would you feel, if you were that person? It is like so corroding the bit of pride you have of being bilingual right?

Chapter 3~

Anyway, it is seriously getting late right now, and I should tuck myself into bed before I am really declared with insomnia. Good night darling readers! Take care!

*Mummy, please give me your blessing?*

... one word to describe my feelings now...

They're totally overpowered by... being... worried... tired...